It's been a long night. Our kitchen and bathroom's been disemboweled more than we thought it would be, for faaar more many days than we expected, and ick, it's a mess. At least we got free pizza and oranges out of the deal. :D?



1. It's easier to say "no" to being taken advantage of than it is to say "no" to taking responsibility for someone else.

With the latter, there's always a third party who needs to be answered to. It's easy to say, "Whatever, just don't let it happen again," when it's just you and someone who always shows up late, or doesn't do their task, or whatever. But when there's another friend, or boss, or professor who needs to find out from YOU why YOUR acquaintance fucked up, I think we find it shameful to have to answer for the person who didn't man up. And it's doubly uncomfortable.

2. IRL people ask me for relationship advice and I have no idea why. I end up getting angry and yeah, as a lot of you know, my anger problem is that I can't tell how much anger I'm projecting when I'm really not furious. So a lot of times, my friends quietly whisper midway through, "O-o-okay, I can stop if this is upsetting you." :\

But it's just, HEY THIS ASSHOLE SAYS HE LIKES THAT I WENT ON A DIET AND LOST 35 LBS AND COOKED JUST TO MAKE HIM HAPPY AND THEN HE UNZIPPED HIS PANTS AND THEN THREW A HARD OBJECT AT ME WHEN I HAD NO REACTION WHAT'S HARASSMENT AND HE BECOMES EDWARD CULLEN WHEN I TRY TO TALK TO OTHER GUYS OMG NICOLE WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE HAVING A STROKE?

And then I lecture for thirty minutes about confidence and then I make dumb metaphors about gazelles mating and you guys, why does anyone ever talk to me.

I kind of like it though that one of the lunch/break parks we share with Activision becomes the official Santa Monica Crying Park for Young Ladies on weekdays between 2-6pm.



It's a nice summer night here. I hope you guys in this hemisphere are having a nice summer night, too. ♥

ANNNNNNNNND HAPPY BIRTHDAY aizome




I made you a cake, but Anakin eated it. :(